Rainbows

Icy cold breath on the back of my neck
My skin shivers but I do not fear
Darkness surrounds my physical body
The cold cement my only friend
Slow, methodical tears fall from my eyes
In this world I am empty without you.

I said we were inseparable
And meant invincible.
Being wrong hard is hard to bear.

The chains on my hands and feet are reminders of my mistakes.
What if, What if, What if
That’s not important anymore.
I have lost all hope, I think
Tell me what it was, exactly
I have my memories.

Hiding in the closet
Of your own room,
You pointed that barrel
At the roof of your mouth.
Was it really supposed to be loaded?
Even in death I can hear you ironic laughing
What the hell did you expect to find, rainbows?

[*Note: Some lines were used in a poem found earlier in the blog, however, this was the original]